No hop today, just slowly shuffling off this mortal coil.*
Zuni will probably die today. Being a truly independent puss, she started to fade fast around midday Saturday–after out vet has closed.
She's been blind for nine months, but that wasn't much of an issue. She mastered going up and down the eight steps to get outside.
In the last few weeks, she's taken to hanging out in the hamper. I emptied it of clothes and put her scarf in to line it, then I moved her new haven to my bedside. When she started aiming at the corner and swaying, I knew.
She'd hop out on to the bed when she wanted human company.
She's faded before but came good. This time won't be one she survives. She's refusing food and drink. She lost the strength to walk–but she can push away if you snuggle to tightly.
If she makes it to Monday, I'll call the vet, but I'm torn about it. She's never had any illness. Earlier when she looked doomed, the vet said that she was perfect, but really old. Her kidneys were fine.
So. The question. You know. Do you euthanise for just being old? I say no, iff–if and only if–you can keep your pet free from harm and fear.
We are just snuggling now. All night she slept in the crook of my arm. We were fur to skin. I slept poorly, but waking to pet her was worth it.
We are not linking up to the pet blog because it'd require the desktop. I'm still in bed in my robe (hello–you don't get skin-to-fur here) with my kitten of 17 years and 8 months. I'll separate to do the basics only.
I have a nice rice basket that I'll line with fleece and sling like a hammock between my handlebars. We will ride and get fresh air. She likes being snug. She likes the outdoors. And I need to get out and stop crying. My sniffles shake her.
Sent from my iPhone, toots.
*I composed this on my phone because I had an uncharged laptop–my cord gets moody. As I wrote above, I wouldn't leave Zuni for the desktop. I can type on my laptop with her in my lap. She's still with me–barely–in my lap. My laptop is infront of me on my bed. I can type and pet. Want another reason to learn the keyboard–single-hand typing. Because I can access Mr Buggers's site (where the rules, if not the boys, are) I can linky up and play. It's a hop after all. A sad hop.
One other note. The rain has kept the laptop out of the bike's panier and at home where she likes it dry. I'm behind on reading blogs and replying. For that I sincerely apologise. I like to keep this at interactive as I can. If I don't reply to comments on this post, it's because I usually do so on the train. This might make me too weepy.
The peeps who play and whose photos today will keep the tears at bay. Hey, I'm sad. Let me rhyme.
17 thoughts on “No hop today.”
Oh Katy, I’m so sorry! People understand when life gets in the way. Don’t worry about not making the rounds. It sounds to me like she lived a wonderful life with you!
Katy, so sorry to hear she’s not doing well. You’re being the best kitty-mom ever; staying close to her and keeping her warm and comfy and content. Being snuggled in close to you, hearing you breathe and feeling your heartbeat must be close to heaven for her. (hugs)
Thanks for stopping by our blog. I’m heartbroken to read your post. So glad you’re both able to cuddle today. 😦
Thinking of you, stay close and know she knows your love is there.
So sorry. Bless you Zuni. xoxo
I am so sorry to hear about your sweetie. I agree with you, old is not a reason, she will tell you when it is time. Purrs and hugs.
Oh, I’m so sorry about Zuni. I lost two kitties that were very old at home, I’m glad we were able to do that for them. It’s so hard to lose them anytime though. I’m sure she loves the warm cuddling and is happy to be with the one she loves too. She’s beautiful.
Our pets are experts at ripping our hearts to shreds. I do hope Zuni passes peacefully in your arms. I don’t really know what else to say but I’d give you a hug if I could.
I know what you are going through. It’s so hard to say goodbye to your best friend. I say this with tears in my eyes….
I am so sorry. I went through the same thing two months ago, this is so sad, but cuddles are so good and just be present with her.
I am so sorry to hear you beautiful fur baby is fading. If it is her time, I hope she goes with peace and love in her heart and she’ll know how much her mum loves her.
Will be thinking of you.
My heart goes out to you; enjoy the cuddles and the time you’ve got. *hugs*
I’m sad for you & Zuni, but happy that you can stay with her & keep her close. She sounds like a wonderful cat.
Wow, over 17 years. That’s a long innings. I hope that it goes as well as it could possibly go. Our thoughts are with you.
I hate to be serious with you, but I am truly sorry Katy.
Sorry to see Zuni not doing well. I think as long as the pet is in no pain, does not have fluid in the lungs, and is resting comfortable that its ok to let nature take its course.
So sorry to hear that your girl is fading, but glad that you are able to be there with her. Hugs to you.